Monthly Archives: April 2011

The truth sucks.

The truth is, I have a bad habit of comparing myself to others. There’s always someone with a better smile, nicer clothes, a skinnier waist, brighter eyes, and amazing hair. I put myself down all the time. I can never be happy with the way I look at all. I’m self-conscious and that’s probably the number one thing I want to change about me.


Damn right true about me.

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Posted by on April 30, 2011 in Confessions


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Jar of Hearts♥

I’m in love with this song. Though the meaning behind it doesn’t have anything to do with me… but still, this song speaks for the hearts of those who were deeply thrashed out by the person they loved the most.

Am I even right?

And who do you think you are
Running ’round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You’re gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don’t come back for me
Who do you think you are 


I’m loving Maddi Jane’s voice ♥♥♥

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Posted by on April 29, 2011 in Music


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Good Friday.

One of the 7 last words I remember Jesus said was, “My God, my God, why have You forsaken Me?” in Matthew 27:46.

Sometimes, we thought God abandoned us. We feel so lonely that the idea of God was slowly diminishing. Even Jesus said so Himself, He asked God the question “Why have you forsaken Me?”. If Jesus save the humanity for our sins, why can’t He save himself from His own suffering? I read from the net that “Jesus became sin for us, so He felt the loneliness and abandonment that sin always produces, except that in His case, it was not His sin – it was ours.” 

We are the reason that He gave His life. 

I will never question Jesus for these words because I am (or we are) the reason why He suffered and died on the cross. I don’t know how to repay Him, but I do know that just by loving Him and other people – by spreading love – He would be happy for me.

Btw, this song I posted always made me cry. It was the song played before our Theology time last first year, second sem, by our Prof. Ismael…I love that guy! I learned so many things from him 🙂

So, what’s your song today?

Have a Good Friday ♥♥♥

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Posted by on April 22, 2011 in Music


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Lead me to the cross.

One of my favorite songs from Hillsong 🙂

I swear this song made my heart melt. I just realized now how I failed to listen to Christian songs like this 😦 It actually refreshen me up and enlighten my mood…I feel so much better.

You know what’s best to do before you sleep?

Listen to songs by Hillsong. They’re fantastic, they’re great, and absolutely cool!

Lord, I wanted to serve you again just like what I did when I was younger. I don’t know what happened to me. I don’t know where do I end and I’ve no idea where to start again. See? It’s been 2 years, and I am not doing anything. 2 long years and yea…I’m still in here. What if I die tomorrow? Or next week? What are the odds that there could be an accident?

Nothing’s impossible and I really wanted to repent and go back to Him. But I should find myself first, right? I should start from scratch. I should be able to find Him again, with my own consent. I grew up knowing Him and singing for Him, I just felt before that it was the right thing to do. And maybe it really is. I was wronged now as a teenager. I made decisions…wrong decisions. Mistakes that I wanted to stop. I wasted enough time…but still, I hadn’t found something. I don’t know what to find…and I am so lost…

Please Lord, lead me to the cross…I really want it…but, doubts? Uncertainties? Shallowness? I hope I can erase all of these things that were affecting my mind…

I really need some help…maybe singing this song before I sleep would help. 🙂



Posted by on April 20, 2011 in Music


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Home is wherever I’m with you.

This beautiful song made my day! Especially sang by a father and his daughter.

It was soooo sweeeeett!!!♥♪♫

I wonder if my family would be like this in the future? I hope so 🙂

Enjoy watching it! Visit their site too so you could watch more of their vids and bonding. I love this family! Soo cool and kawaiii 🙂

Alabama, Arkansas, I do love my Ma & Pa ♫
Not the way that I do love you

Holy roly, me, oh my, you’re the apple of my eye
Girl, I’ve never loved one like you

Man, oh man, you’re my best friend, I scream it to the nothingness
There ain’t nothin’ that I need

Well, hot & heavy, pumpkin pie, chocolate candy, Jesus Christ
There ain’t nothin’ please me more than you

Ahh, Home
Let me come Home
Home is wherever I’m with you
La la la la, take me Home
Baby, I’m coming Home ♫

I’ll follow you into the park, through the jungle, through the dark
Girl, I’ve never loved one like you

Moats & boats & waterfalls, alley ways & pay phone calls
I’ve been everywhere with you

That’s true

We laugh until we think we’ll die, barefoot on a summer night
Nothin’ new is sweeter than with you

And in the sticks we’re running free like it’s only you and me
Geez, you’re something to see. ♫

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Posted by on April 20, 2011 in Music


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From Him.

Dear Future Girlfriend,

I’ve already come across many nice girls, all of them gorgeous in their own way, but like you, I am still searching. I don’t think it’ll be too hard, because I don’t really demand too much- after all, I am not looking for Ms. Perfect, I am looking for Ms. Right. Physically, you may be the simplest girl in the room, but there has to be that certain something about you that I find charming. It will be nice, of course, if you have positive attitude and an interesting personality. I hope that you can be understanding and supportive of the things I do and the things that are important to me. It will be great if you can make me laugh! There are no dull moments with someone that I know is funny. I want our relationship to be filled with excitement and surprises- I don’t want anything stagnant; I don’t want “just okay”. One of my weaknesses is the sweetness of a girl. If you can find a way to cheer me up after a long bad day, that would really make me feel good. I will also appreciate if you text me sweet stuff. I’d like to wake up to a good morning message from you, and go to bed at the end of the day after hearing you say goodnight. Another thing you should know: I believe that the best relationships always start from friendship. I want to be able to talk to you, be silly with you, and simply hang out with you. I want you to value the “friend” part of being my girlfriend. I also want us to share each other’s life, and I don’t want everything to be just about the two of us. I want our relationship to extend to other aspects of our lives, including our friends, family, and most of all GOD. A relationship will last only if we accept both the good and bad things about each other. Despite all the criteria I’ve mentioned above, I want to make it clear that I don’t want you to change a single thing about yourself just to please me. Losing your identity and turning into someone completely different is not necessary. Relax, I already like you, and I like you for who you truly are. I am looking forward to meeting you, and I know that one of these days, I will. I trust that we’ll find each other soon, and when that time comes, I know you’ll prove to me that you were definitely worth to wait.

Your Future Boyfriend,


Condolences for AJ’s family and loved ones. 😦 I feel bad about what happened to him. As far as I’ve heard from his colleagues, he’s been such a great person. I still remember the time when I am fond of him (I am a former fan, btw), the first time I saw him on TV I just know that he’s a good person and very kind and sweet. If I’d known him in person I guess it’ll be one of the good thing in my life, but sadly I won’t have a chance to meet him…well, except if I can go to heaven when I died. I hope and pray so.

God, please bless this wonderful man. He is very love by all…including me, even though I hadn’t met the guy. (Wut)

God…keep all his loved ones strong, especially his family and the girl who he has fallen for…the girl he’s been writing this letter to, which he hasn’t known at the time.

You love him God, and he loves You.

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Posted by on April 19, 2011 in Confessions


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What a bum!

Pay back’s a bitch daw. Look who’s talking. Well, it’s been two days since the NO CLASS day for us Bedans. But guess what? 2 days and no swimming!

Well, honestly I hadn’t swim for four years since I developed this kind of trauma in water… it’s a very long story. For short, I’ve seen someone drowned and died…and…I don’t wanna think about it. 😦

Sad but true. Anyways, I was thankful for these 2 days that God gave to me. (I should always thank God for another day of my life, it’s a miracle!) Two days of doing nothing, being a bummer, eating, sleeping, fighting with my siblings, watching TV, etc.

Two days that I’ll never get back. Now I feel like I am excited about school (Note: I shouldn’t feel that) and seeing my friends (this is the only good thing about school).

Guess what? Mum’s shouting my name at the other room, telling me to go in there and share a room with them so we can save a lot of electricity…whaaaatttt???

Btw, I should obey my parents, right? But what if my parents are manipulative? Tsk tsk. I shouldn’t think like this.

Rule Number One: Be patient and kind…like Love.

Wow…I really want to go to a place so serene.

And beach! I really want to go to beach. 😦

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Posted by on April 19, 2011 in Meet the Geeky Dee


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