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Wishful thinking

I wish I would stop on dreaming. I mean, I have this image of myself inside my head, living in a perfect dream wherein I could go to places I would want to… but I never did. I never had any adventures in life that someday I would opt to tell my future kids and grand kids.

I could never tell them that when I was 16 I went here and there and have fun. Because there is really no fun and adventure in my life. My parents didn’t know that, they weren’t aware of that fact. That we only have a short amount of time and we should enjoy it. They wouldn’t know because they were trapped into their own prison cell and they never notice…

Life is short. I could die tomorrow, or probably on the next few years (Well, I hope not) and I haven’t had the adventure of my life.

Oh crap, so much for wishful thinking!

I should probably accept reality then. I’ve been whining and complaining all the time. Who wouldn’t? If you haven’t had the best of your life.

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Posted by on December 30, 2011 in Uncategorized

 

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Unparalleled thoughts.

I kept on looking at someone whose eyes are not entirely focused on me, but rather on other girls around me too. And all he could give me were glances. Someone who doesn’t really pay attention to what I say, nor to what I do.

Or maybe I am just having false ideas of what it truly appears. I do felt the sparks they’ve been talking about, but as I have said it before, it only happens for a little while.

I wonder why, but when you see that person, you will be shocked because you felt something strange. And when he disappear again, all would be back to normal.

Does it mean that I’m kind of screwed up right now? All the guys I have liked before, its pretty much the same thing I always do: Ignore the butterflies.

I just can’t seem to go on with the flow.

I guess there is something that is really wrong with me.

 
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Posted by on December 29, 2011 in Uncategorized