“You should blend in.” I told them this. “Why?” They asked.
I turned around, “Why? Because that’s how you can survive…this life, the one you’re living at, it’s full of shit right? Well, maybe you’re happy now, but what about tomorrow? Would you still be happy? Would you still have that smile on your face? No, right? Happiness is not constant. Happiness is bullshit…
Those people out there, they were just pretending that they really care for you, that they understand you. But the truth is – no one really cares. Not even your parents. Not even your siblings. Not even your friends, and especially not that someone special. They don’t understand how you feel, and they never will. It kind of sucks, right?
So the only reasonable thing that you can do is to blend in…that’s what you’re doing all your life, right? You’re blending in…and that kinds of suck. How did I know that you are? Think about it, have you ever stopped yourself doing something you really like? What makes you stop it? Because of what other people will think of you? Because they won’t like it? Is that so? Well then, you’re blending in…that’s good. Great, seriously. You’re blending in – in a way that they won’t know what you desire. In a way that they can accept you…
We all live by the expectations of others. We depend our happiness on them because we can’t be happy by ourselves. And that totally sucks…since, WHY? Why can’t we? Why do we need to blend in? Because we’re scared of feeling that loneliness again? We’re scared of being unwanted? Why can’t we be ourselves, just once?
Well, if you’re going to ask me if I was blending in. I’d say, yes I do. I always do. I’m kind of used to it by now…blending in. Kind of sucks too…as in totally sucks.”